Blessed

It's been a while since I've wrote something sappy or really meaningful and honestly I like it that way. I like lighthearted posts and cute pics. This means all is well and Avery is doing fabulous...as she still is.
I stumbled upon several preemie blogs and got wrapped up in reading about other little miracles. Some doing wonderful, others not so much. Several were born even before Avery and others had lost a twin as I have.
While reading those blogs Avery was asleep in her swing right beside me. I got so emotional and overwhelmed with the fact that I'm so blessed, I just stared at my beautiful miracle and cried.
Some of those babies are dealing with so much beyond the NICU. Some have mild issues while others have devastating life long disabilities. When I read about other babies and see all they have wrong I'm truly amazed with Avery. The only issue she has right now is reflux and that's under control with a little Zantac.
She was born 15 weeks early, not 2 or 5 but 15 and only has reflux. It baffles me. Don't get me wrong I"m thrilled that's all we're dealing with. I'm just in awe of God and what he's doing with her. Obviously she still has huge milestones to reach and developing to do, but so far she's doing it and doing it well. Things can come up as she gets older as with any baby, preemie or full term. I lean on God and trust in Him that no matter what we'll get through it.
I believe he's blessed me with Avery and her health in part because I lost Adison. Losing her was indescribably painful and I'm not over it even a little bit. If anything I feel at times it gets harder. God knows what I can handle and I think he's giving me a break (you might say) with Avery.
She is doing amazingly well and I am beyond grateful. I seriously believe I thank God more times in one day than most people do in a week. I still pray for her as much as I prayed for her in the NICU. For one I'm a believer in prayer and prayer is what's gotten me through all I've been through. Also I almost feel if I stop praying so much something might go wrong. God might think well you sure prayed hard when you needed me most, but what about now? Do you think you don't need me as much? I don't think that at all and so I want to show Him how much I need Him and how much I need my precious baby. In truth I should have always reached out to Him the way I do now.
I know I say I'm blessed often but no other word describes the way I feel about the gift of Avery. She gives me the greatest joy every single day. Her smile, touch, and giggles just warm my heart like nothing else. I never take a single moment with her for granted, those are moments I could have never had.